Jitter Bug

I can not remember a time when I was completly content with how my life was. I am always looking for something new. Something to do, something to entertain me, something to make me feel challanged. It's like I'm never completly whole. I am constantly searching for the thing that will complete me. Is there such a thing? Is there a point where you stop feeling the need or desire to change yourself? Is life really just this chase and thats what keeps us motivated to wake up every morning? I'm not sure if other people feel this way or not. Maybe I am just a little (or a lot) screwed up. Maybe I am just not happy with myself and until I am I will keep looking and reaching for the next big thing. Or maybe I am just a restless person who needs constant stimulation. Maybe I get bored to easily. How much of this feeling is me, and how much of it is my generation? I've heard that my generation will switch jobs and careers close to 7 times in their life. Our grandparents did the same job most of their adult lives. What has changed to cause this? I don't do well with options. I can't make a decision to save my life. All of my big decisions that I have made so far in life have been made on accident. I think it's because I am afraid to lock myself into something and not be able to go back. But that's all part of life, too. It's crazy to think that all the decisions we make have an impact on our lives. I mean, think about it. Even the decision of what to have for dinner, which seems to simple and pointless could be the one decision that results in you getting food poisoning or an allergic reaction. Life itself is a challange. I think maybe I will just hide in my bed under the covers...KIDDING! Bring it!